Damn, How hard it is.

[JacquelynF]

How do experienced traders manage to stay disciplined and follow their trading plans consistently when I, as a new trader, find myself constantly breaking my own rules even though I know I'm doing something harmful in the moment, because I will set a stop-loss and then move it further away because I don't want to accept the loss, or I will say I'm only risking 1% per trade but then I increase lot size because I want to make back what I lost earlier, or I will tell myself that I'm done trading for the day but then I jump back in because I see a candle moving fast and I feel an irresistible urge to take advantage of the "opportunity,".

Despite being fully aware that these behaviors are irrational and destructive I still repeat them as if I'm powerless to stop myself, which makes me feel like trading is exposing my worst psychological weaknesses and amplifying them to the point where I'm constantly frustrated with myself, ashamed of my lack of control, and confused because I genuinely understand risk management intellectually but somehow fail to apply it in practice, especially during moments of high emotion where the market appears to be offering easy profit or threatening immediate danger, which triggers a kind of psychological panic that overrides every plan I set beforehand, leaving me wondering whether discipline is something that comes naturally with time or whether there's a deeper mental or emotional barrier that I need to overcome before I can ever hope to trade profitably, and I'm genuinely worried that if I can't control my impulses now I might never be able to become a consistent trader, so how do professionals build such strong discipline, and how can someone like me train myself to follow rules even when every part of me wants to break them?